Taeyeon

爱 就 爱 错 就 错
18
北京
married to 
part of  family
 
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But seriously, Is there a harder pain than falling in love with an idol? An idol you can never touch. Never talk to. Never hear her laugh at my jokes. I would sometimes watch fancams of Gummi and see her smile and tilt her head nonchalantly, and every time it never ceases to amaze me how little an action could set my heart aflame as my burning passion for her grew every night and every day.

This honestly depresses me and I'm sure it's unhealthy psychologically to be so invested emotionally in a girl I have never met and will never truly know. And I would hope for these feelings to pass, but they make me feel so good at the same time. I am so happy to be in love with her, and that makes me sad.

Aw man. Sometimes I see people hold her hand at fansigns. That would make my entire world. But it crushes me to know that it wouldn't make hers. I'm just a random fan in a sea of millions. She would forget about me almost instantaneously. I love her, in all honesty. It's not healthy, but I love her. But how am I different? I am exactly the same as every single other fucking fan. I'll never be special in her eyes.

And how do you think she copes? Surely she would realise this. That with every day she is crushing the dreams of thousands of forlorn young men and women. It's not fair on her, having to live with that knowledge, that guilt.

I know it's sad, and I hope this obsession is just the rough end of the hormones....but honestly.

Questions

over 10 years
do you live in beijing
yes
deletedalmost 12 years
why are you so great
Swag ASS dope blunt bitches at my door

Achievements

6 / 20Super Sleuth!
4 / 20Do No Harm
2 / 10Gotcha!

Created Setups

over 12 years
UM WHY IS SOOYOUNG IN YOUR AVI TAEYEON
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because auto town win
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ur silly as hell
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lucafer o.o
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u dont hav swag
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i defriended like everyone, i dnt kno how those noobs got added
over 12 years
y u so silly
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shut the fuck up, you're my bitch
over 12 years
LOOL. You're such a troll gurrrrl.
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under the round tab
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who are you again?
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get on msn
over 12 years
Haha I love Gain too.
over 12 years
Is Gain in your avi?
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TOMMMMM ICH LIEBE DICH MEINE LIEBLING FREUNDE
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... a one, and a two...
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SUICIDE CIRCLE. I NOW THINK YOU ARE COOL.
over 12 years
Wow. Uber late response. My bad. Idk if Han self deleted. I thought he had a new SN? :/
over 12 years
whenever i think about you i cover my body in vaseline and touch myself
over 12 years
It's small, but nice. :)