Taeyeon

爱 就 爱 错 就 错
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北京
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But seriously, Is there a harder pain than falling in love with an idol? An idol you can never touch. Never talk to. Never hear her laugh at my jokes. I would sometimes watch fancams of Gummi and see her smile and tilt her head nonchalantly, and every time it never ceases to amaze me how little an action could set my heart aflame as my burning passion for her grew every night and every day.

This honestly depresses me and I'm sure it's unhealthy psychologically to be so invested emotionally in a girl I have never met and will never truly know. And I would hope for these feelings to pass, but they make me feel so good at the same time. I am so happy to be in love with her, and that makes me sad.

Aw man. Sometimes I see people hold her hand at fansigns. That would make my entire world. But it crushes me to know that it wouldn't make hers. I'm just a random fan in a sea of millions. She would forget about me almost instantaneously. I love her, in all honesty. It's not healthy, but I love her. But how am I different? I am exactly the same as every single other fucking fan. I'll never be special in her eyes.

And how do you think she copes? Surely she would realise this. That with every day she is crushing the dreams of thousands of forlorn young men and women. It's not fair on her, having to live with that knowledge, that guilt.

I know it's sad, and I hope this obsession is just the rough end of the hormones....but honestly.

Questions

over 10 years
do you live in beijing
yes
deletedalmost 12 years
why are you so great
Swag ASS dope blunt bitches at my door

Achievements

6 / 20Super Sleuth!
4 / 20Do No Harm
2 / 10Gotcha!

Created Setups

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YOU ARE TERRIBLE
almost 13 years
Neither have I. Though I am torrenting one of the Gundam animes. 50 episodes there, so I ought to be good for a while.
about 13 years
*NOT HAPPY TURKEY DAY. i'm sorry >;.
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imy tom best fwenddd
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why arent u on msn..
about 13 years
Ah ha! You found the flaw in my argument! If this were a real debate, you could have undermined my whole argument based on that one flaw! Excellent! Also, I'm pretty much a natural debater. But there are things I can't argue. I do especially well with things I'm passionate about, live EVA.
about 13 years
Thanks, i really appreciate ^^
about 13 years
HAPPY TURKEY DAY. :D
about 13 years
http://www.epicmafia.com/role/789 please support my icon !
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HOW CAN YOU WRITE SO BEAUTIFULLY?!
about 13 years
you're turned on by my herpaderp face, amiright? o;
about 13 years
WOOT WOOT. ^-^
about 13 years
Beast mason to Cult win ;)
about 13 years
Oh noes...welp. I'm sad :(
about 13 years
Also, I miss Misato on your wall. D:
about 13 years
Israfel. It successfully split itself into two. It was two beings. Then there was also Iruel, who was the one who appeared in the Pribnow Box that almost took over the Magi. It showed what I would call asexual reproduction, cloning itself exactly (I know the scientific term. It's mitosis or something, but I'm not sure.) and spreading itself at an accelerated rate.
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:3 thank you
about 13 years
Who's the one Angel? Also, interestingly enough, did you know that only TWO angels were named in the Bible? Michael and Lucifer. Gabriel came from the Qu'ran is what I heard.
about 13 years
Humans, however, were classified at the end of the series as the 18th Angel, the Lilim, those born of Lilith, much like Unit 01. In fact, Unit 01 is probably just the giant, incredibly pissed off, and violent version of us.
about 13 years
EVAs are made from Angels. The majority of Angels were made from Adam, but Unit 01, Lilith. And the MVP EVAs, possibly Sachiel and/or Shamshiel.