its strange how i constantly feel lonely yet when i all but completely isolate myself i feel way better
i used to stay at my grandma's for a week or 2 at a time without internet and just... play games constantly, no human interaction other than seeing my grandma a bit
probably because ive had almost no social interaction and have exclusively been playing some of the video games i got for christmas
i also for the first time have money and no real idea of what to spend it on which is a weird feeling for me because normally i spend it all immediately but now im just kinda... apathetic i guess but i'm sure i'll find something eventually
also for the college stuff i made a lot of friends freshman year, but most of them i didn't stay super connected to. i made more friends each year, so there's no like threshold for when you can't make friends anymore in college
Read Tucker's thread, and it really resonated with me. Singing isn't something I'm great at, I wouldn't even call myself good, but it's just something I like to do and I hate doing it in front of people because I feel judged and inferior, especially since several people i went to school with were in huge state-wide choirs and stuff and i was horrible compared to them
but i make bad decisions at 5 in the morning so i recorded a lil something
