How do I get over things I did to people that cared about me...Things I did when I was 16 still haunt me. I had Borderline Personality Disorder and wasn't diagnosed and didn't know how to cope with it. Now I learned how to manage it, but I hurt and screwed over a lot of people.
I ran into an old friend today and she said she wasn't happy with me. She told me "you're a manipulative a-hole who uses people for blowjobs, pity, and attention".
I think I've grown and changed a lot, I'm not who i was 2 years ago. How do I live with the guilt and not let my past mistakes define me.
I promise i'm not making this post for attention, its just so hard to live with myself idk why i try
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literally how when people knew it was him within 1 post lmao
hypebeast i think you need to give your guilt to god as he is the only one that can take it away. he sent us jesus to like take that all away. he will make you a new person and you will know that you are forgiven. then you can live a good and pleasing life and know that you changed for the better
I have BPD. You'll always be judged and your illness will always be used against you. As long as you know that you're a changed person than the opinion of others don't matter. I hope you're truly managing it. I am now and I have to say at times it isn't easy. You have to catch yourself in that mode, it's called mindfulness. DBT (a specific therapy) can help a lot. Also consistent psychotherapy and medication if necessary. If you keep thinking back to the past you will remain stagnant and trapped for many years to come. Let go and move forward. Know yourself. A big issue with BPD patients is them not having self-identity. Once you find that, nothing really else matters and most things won't permanently affect you. Good luck and message me if you want to talk or have any questions. Having BPD is rough, we are often misunderstood and called manipulative or callous when that's never what we intended. ♥
im not a professional, but i thinking making amends with the people you hurt can help, but you also need to forgive yourself. You seem like you aren't the person you were back then and you've made an effort to be better. Good luck! <3
